OH GOD!!!!! stefon!!!

OH GOSH!!!!!!!

i can't believe it!!!!!!

hahaha...

i'm watching a movie while writing this post...

guess what movie?

i don't know if you've watched SNL before?

but if you don't, you SHOULD!

if you are, GOOD!

i'm watching the weekend update segment.

the part where Stefon becomes Stefon Meyers.

hahaha..... 

i love it!

i think they'd make a perfect couple.

well, good for them....

but so sad that SETH is leaving.

but on the bright side,

now fans of SETH MEYERS can watch him every night

on LATE NIGHT with SETH MEYERS.

premiering on feb 24, mon, 12.35/11.35c

i think.....

i'm helping the show to make promotions...

aren't i gonna get something...

lol.....

anyway,

GO WATCH SNL and the 

PREMIER of

LATE NIGHT with SETH MEYERS!!

A Stinky little place called here.

It's already sad that I'm stuck with these bunch of suckers again...I really hope that it could leave this hell hole...I really can't stand it anymore.... I can't stand another year I this same place, same shit, same losers and the same nonsense.....
Things are getting worse, people are getting more pathetic, friends turning into hideous black hearted monsters, teachers changing into a nag machine, surrounding gets gray and dull...
Everything around me is turning into gray and not as colorful as I first came in....
The longer you stay in a place, the uglier it'll be.....
You'll see the darker side behind the bright and cheery impression they first gave you when you first enter the school....
You'll see the bloody behind the scenes of teachers who act so sweet in front of their colleagues.....
You'll get into a tornado of pathetic and untruthful friends....
You'll turn yourself into a piece of shit....
The ugly truth about every place,
If you r not on the top of the food chain, 
You'll die.
You stay afloat or you'll sink to the bottom of bull shit.
A truly sad place. So cruel.
You either be a grass and let everybody walk over you,
Or you be the ghost who scare the shit out of the people who tries to walk over you.
I chose to be the ghost, 
No friends, no shit, no heart broken, no back stabbed, no need to give a fuck and not a damn given.

please don't go

please don't go

don't let me go

you may not know,

but you paint like Van Gogh,

make the best sloppy joe

and crazy like John Doe.

that's why you catch my soul. 

but that's who you are

not some big film star

driving some expensive sports car,

flirting with bitches at some beach bar.

nor a rock star,

flinging your shiny guitar

and rocking at Santa Barbara.

since you sign that contract,

you've been overreacting

about every small thing.

you wear bling bling

and started hating chicken wing.

but you started drinking.

you begin to be very annoying

and forgot about our wedding ring.

maybe this might not work out

not even with doggy eye and a cute pout.

if it makes you proud,

you should just go with your 'friends' and hangout.

i'll be at the gym working out

till i get the correct amount of fat.

all because of me

well,
we have four close friends.....
but maybe that's what i think..... 
we use to call ourselves the J power of 4 group....
or maybe it's just me...
i used to think that we were a special group...
and we were a group of 4...
not until yesterday...
there was a girl who used to be in our group....
but we kinda had a big fight and broken into 2 groups..
us and them 3...
well the think is that,
Big J went to thailand and brought back some gifts....
She gave the girl a customized key chain...
and us 3J have to wait for about 3 days to get our present.
and guess what we got for our present...
key chains with only 2 patterns to choose...
and one pattern has the letter D on it.....
then after we chose our 'present'..
she passed the bag to the kids behind...
and let them pick.....

i was thinking,
so i am like them...
i am nothing different than those usual kids who you don't talk to....
i'm a nothing...
well...
i went to a few countries and I specially picked gifts for us....
and you just bought a bag of key chains from the road side and give us?
well then...
i get it...
i'm nothing to you....

i will not take it personally...
but i will know how you truly feel towards me....

Geez...Gimme a break

i need a place where i can just scream all i want!!!!
there's just too much inside me...

i'm feeling the pain that few would understand..
but if you do, help me.
i don't think i could hold it anymore....
i've read through a site about signs people show when they are bout to commit suicide....
and i hit most of them......
i'm starting to give away my precious earthly possession...
my ring, my presents, and my very expensive pen....
and i'm starting to say that if i'm gone my friends would not miss me...
and i'm going to meet my parents and my dead relatives.
my boyfriend has also left me.....
so i think it would be better if i'm gone......

Blah blah blah

Everyone has their own fucking problem....
Why do you come and bother me with your problem?
And when I go to you, you said I'm fucking annoying.

It's like you can have a problem,
But when I have it, it's like I'm the troublemaker!
I can be a real troublemaker, I don't think you wanna see that part.

Just walk and see....
I assure you, that's not the last of me....

fishing

i realized that a lot of people like fishing now a days.
i meant fishing for attention.
sometimes i love attention, well most of the time.
i hate it when people steal my lime light..
but sadly, i'm not always in the lime light.
i really love attention,
but you gotta get use to it if people don't care about you much.
i'm not those kind who get hundreds of likes on facebook or thousands of followers on twitter and instagram.
but hey, you get thousands of friends of facebook,
but in real life you can't get a real friend.

that is sad.
that is very very sad..

well ofcourse i want thousands of likes,
but if i can't get it it's alright too.
i don't need thousands of likes or friends.
i know my existence and i'm happy with it.

anyway,
i'm going out now,
will continue updating when i have the mood.
in a bad mood or a really good mood.
bye, enjoy fishing!